When Tracks Fade

By N Forbes Matheis


When Tracks Fade

By N Forbes Matheis



When Tracks Fade” chronicles two distinct periods in the life of a newly-wed, Jamaican, doctor who has moved to Germany to live with her husband. When the harsh realities of racism and sexism threaten to derail her career goals and drive her to the brink of insanity, Millicent escapes through flashbacks to her youth on the island. Through one of her flashbacks, the middle-aged doctor meets with her younger self and relives the traumas, fears and unresolved issues of her childhood. Through this encounter she is also able to reconnect with and reclaim the source of her inspirations.

Millicent’s account is typical of the girls growing up in her neck of the Jamaican countryside. Gender inequality and poverty plague the poor, farming, families. Millicent remembers the domestic violence and the constant anger. She relives the sexual assualt and the abortion. She recalls her own emotional abandonment and depression and she recounts the gang activities and the murder. They are her memories, but they are not her story alone. These things didn’t happen in her home alone, they happened in many homes in her village. They were what the women and girls dealt with everyday and yet they still swung their hips and held their heads high when they walked.

Millicent struggles to understand how this could be. How could she continue living after all her misfortunes? She resorts to self hurt and isolation and suicidal thoughts torment her. She pushes past the darkness and musters the strength to help those who are wounded. In her acts of kindness, Millicent finds her calling and the strength to move forward with her life. She realizes that she is an offspring of the cool mountains, a daughter of cedar trees and progeny of the ever flowing rivers. Her roots run deep and if she survived back then, she can survive now.

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